Captive

from Small Love by Eileen Doan

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this song is about idealizing a relationship. do i care about this person enough to let go of them before the decline becomes a crash? i like to fling myself fully into people and it tends to destroy me, and this toxic pattern that i discovered in myself is something that took me a while to admit. i'm not saving anyone if i'm not also saving myself.

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you're a fading light in the evening dusk
in a crowded room with an empty cup
what do you want from me
i can see you standing all the way from here
you're the last of sunlight in the atmosphere
falling toward me, me
i don't think i would have given up
you keep saying i'm enough
but don't you see
we don't act like we're in love
just two people catching up
to a fantasy

we said we would always
try to be the one who's
always enough always enough always enough
we were holding on
but now it feels like our
time is up time is up
i think we have been
holding each other captive

your two damn wings were meant to fly
it's hard for you to say goodbye
held in place by fear
we can't wait for our hearts to break
aren't you tired of this ache
oh what do you want to hear
just tell me outright what you need
i'd rather thunder in the tress
than hiding from the light

we said we would always
try to be the one who's
always enough always enough always enough
we were holding on
but now it feels like our
time is up time is up
i think we have been
holding each other captive

it doesn't matter now does it
the other choices we had
how do we fall out of love
it doesn't hurt that bad
you can have your rivers
i'll sleep alone tonight
i only want sunshine for you
someday we'll get it right

we said we would always
try to be the one who's
always enough always enough always enough
we were holding on
but now it feels like our
time is up time is up
i think we have been
holding each other captive

credits

from Small Love, released August 7, 2020
vocals, arrangement, instruments by Eileen Doan *
* electric guitar 2 by Greg Messmer
* drums by Peter Brucker

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Eileen Doan Chicago, Illinois

Eileen is willing to bet she’s the best damn acoustic-pop-female-singer-songwriter in Chicago. She plays the piano, guitar, and ukelele, and tries her best with electronic pads. Lately, she’s been carving out her sound, writing sad songs that sound happy, and pondering existence as we know it. She has three EPs and is about to release her first full-length album “Small Love” on August 7th 2020 ... more

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